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lol been awhile [09 Jul 2004|01:14pm]
Its been so long since i used lj, i accidently posted twice, i went to erase the one that didnt get a comment and erased the wrong one..ugh. I'll get the hang of it again.....maybe

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Another unsuccessful attempt at a life unfulfilled.... [08 Jul 2004|09:20pm]
Emotion, wrapped in emotion covered in tears. Thats how i feel, i just want my old love back, the one who cared about "us", the one who didn't remind everyday that im not good enough. I know im not good enough, but im doing everything i can, i cry everynight im alone, i really want to be everything for everyone, all my friends, my krystal, but i cant change instantly, so heaven forbid i try relax when im tired. It hurts so bad, i just want to die, wish she could understand my heart, and how much she's hurting me....

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[18 Jun 2003|05:18pm]
crushed_soul
Magic Number18
JobCelebrity Nobody
PersonalityThe Glass Is Half-Full!
TemperamentSweet Natured
SexualIf I Have To
Likely To WinThe Wrath Of My Peers
Me - In A WordEffervescent
Colour
Brought to you by MemeJack

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Ummm? [13 Jun 2003|02:33pm] 







	
	

	

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It was a long few seconds... [11 Jun 2003|03:02pm]
So schools over, the year went by so fast, and yet it dragged on. how the hell does that work? I cant get over the fact that i did good this year. Usually about two weeks into the school year i have like five truancies, i didn't even have five truancies all year, that's crazy. I hope kelly is doing good, i really miss her, I've been making myself ignore the fact that im worried sick about her. Kelly, i love ya hun, don't forget that. So im getting fat and i dont much like it, im over 230 lbs! and im only like 5'7", yup that qualifies as fat as far as im concerned. No offense to anyone thats bigger than me, im fat and your not just deal with it. lol i'm gonna sit around and do nothing today, so if you're doing nothing today, call me and we'll make plans. love you all, buh bye.

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so little so far [09 Jun 2003|02:10pm]
I feel like im finally getting back to i used to be, the happy me, it's a long road but i think i'm gonna make it. I love you Raye, i really missed hanging out with you, I had a lot of fun this weekend and i hope you weren't getting irritated or anything. No, you'ld probably tell me straight up, instead of not saying anything and then bitching about it on your lj, unlike some people....

I found a bunch of new friends this weekend and i hope i get to hang out with chris more often, he's cool. Well keep me in your thoughts people, i'm really stressed and im trying real hard not to explode.

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*ATTENTION* Brain, please report to Erik............brain? where are you? [07 Jun 2003|08:36am]
Yeah, i had a long talk with Matt last night, it seemed to lessen the tention between us, but that probably won't go away, or if it does, not anytime soon. Basically i've been talking shit about him behind his back, which i'm sorry for, and he found out. i understand why hes mad at me, and i sort of understand why kelly's mad at me, but the two of them really need to ease up on me. If you guys had any idea where my stress level is, and take in to consideration that i still have time to help my friends with their problems, then maybe everyone would stop being a hardass on me. But no one gets it, no one understands me. I misss the old me, the me that existed two years ago, the me before i was bound by love and the responsibility that comes with it. Yeah, so i think my biggest problem is krystal, and i love her so much that there is no way for me to win at this point, if i leave her my problems become easier to deal with, but what about my love you cant just throw that away. And if i stay and she continues doing the same old things, then i stay unhappy, this doesn't work either. I don't know what to do, and of course my friends aren't here to help, they're too busy bitching about what's wrong with their life, or spewing insults at me like i don't matter, like i don't go out of my way to help them. This excludes jacquie, tia and brian, but for the most part anyone who reads this I've gone out of my way to help with their life, with their problems, i could scream that i want to shoot myself in the face right now, and i don't think anyone would care. Why am i constantly giving myself to you people?

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Unknown identity... [06 Jun 2003|05:14pm]
I'd like to start by apologizing to Raye, for those of you who seen my post on her lj know that i was pretty harsh, most of that rant was a spew of insults, and if i actually have any serious problems with her, maybe i shouldn't leave her messages like post-it notes. This doesn't mean i totally agree with the post she had, but i am sorry for the cruel way i went about stating my anger. Raye, i'll talk to you about it on civil terms some other time, or maybe not, just consider it water under the bridge, k.
Secondly, sometimes i let my anger get the best of me, it's been happening quite frequently as of late, but i don't like who i'm becoming. If i could stop it all now i would, maybe i can, i'm really not sure. I have a few people i considered my friends chuck bars of soap into my locker a school, then harrass me for two months, i have a job where i teach 35 six year olds everyday crap, and i only get 60 bucks every two weeks, my girlfriend causes me more problems then i know what to do with, I finally got back to being "good" friends with tia and brian(there was a little bit of a problem between me and brian), and then i finally get back to having fun and having a few friends and then Matt and Kelly end up pissed at me, hmmmm....interesting now what's wrong, and why is it that i can talk to kelly on the phone and everything's ok, but only to find out she's angry at me on a fucking lj post. People, even if you don't like me understand this, i'm a very straight forward person, i say what i think, but to your face. Gimme a fucking brake, i'm mad at you so i'm going to leave an angry message on my lj....why? so that when i confront you about it you can say, "Well i was just angry" or "that wasn't meant for you", this is bullshit. Kelly i dont know what the fuck your problem is, really if you're that shallow, i dont know if i want to know. I've been your friend thruout i dont talk shit behind your back, i dont make you do things you don't want to do, and i dont fucking lie to you. I even hide the fact that your philosophy with david is the less he knows the better. Maybe im wrong, maybe you and david making out behind me the other day wasn't because i talked to your him. I'm sorry apparently im a horrible person now. Seriously what the fuck is your problem? I've been as nice to you as physically possible and you talk trash about me on your fucking lj. That's really low, and assuming that i did something to offend you, like i obviously did. Yeah, i came over with matt to your house, oops. Sorry about that, its just that i had been planning with him for like three days to go job hunting and thats the sole reason i was even on that side of town, i came home from school with him thinking we were gonna hit the mall and apply for jobs, and then he decided to tell me(while we were already at krystals) that the two of you were going to the movies, AND I WAS TOLD SPECIFICALLY THAT I WAS NOT ALOWWED TO GO!, so now im stuck on the south side with matt being my only ride home, so we go and get you. When we get to your house i went into the bathroom and grabbed a q-tip, now im sorry if that offended you, see the thing is, and all my friends know this, that my house is community property, everyone just goes into my cupboards and fridge, and i dont care, but if i have one pet peave its when my ears itch, so when i got there i grabbed a q-tip to cure that. Now this doesn't seem to be a problem to me, but apparently enough for you to mention it in an lj post, thanks its great to know that all the time we spent together you were a real good friend. All the time we spent together, undone by a q-tip, thats great. This seems really fucking stupid to me, if you had a problem with me going into the cabinet, you should have said something, and i had no choice on wether or not i was at your house, and i spent the entire time sleeping, so take the stick out of your ass, because you have way more serious problems then, Erik wasn't invited to my house and now im angry, get a fucking grip on reality.

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Few and far away... [20 Jan 2003|04:56pm]
so here's my update for the month...lol

i'm trying to update more often, but i've been busy i've got a job, i got engaged, i got though decathlon, i didn't get put on nail. All and all i think my last few months have been good, and i'm still growing as a person. N e ways thought i'd share with my friends how things are going. I love ya all.

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I felt so old, now I feel so young... [15 Dec 2002|07:38pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | "When I'm Gone"~3 Doors Down ]

This morning I did something that will change my life forever. As I've grown older, I've started looking around at my life and I realised that I am getting more mature, more intelligent, and more patient, but when I bought that ring today I realised just how young I really am. All this time I've been thinking that I'm getting old and that soon I'll want those years back, but I thought about it and I'm happy getting old next to someone I truly love. Eighteen years have gone by and I hope many more than that are yet to come so if only a small portion of my life has gone by and I'm ready for the rest of it with open arms then I've got a long time left. I only hope that my friends and loved one will see as happy a future as I am going to, and I wish them the best of luck.

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IHOP Wednesdays? [22 Aug 2002|12:12am]
It doesn't quite have the same ring to it as IHOP Thursdays, but me, Raye, Caleb, Katu, and Emma all went to IHOP and we ordered "the usual"...kinda sad that we have a "usual", but what the hey we had fun. Im tired now and im gonna go to bed.

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Is this really surprising? [20 Aug 2002|11:32pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]
[ music | "Road to Nowhere"~Ozzy ]



i am extremely intelligent and very wise. i think logically and rhetorically in order to get problems solved. if i'm not mad now, i'm getting very close.

how mad are you?

this quiz was made by piksy


I for one am not at all shocked...

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[31 Jul 2002|10:46am]
[ mood | content ]


cancer


What's *Your* Sex Sign?

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[28 Jul 2002|12:29pm]
[ mood | horny ]
[ music | "More Human than Human"~White Zombie ]

Well, today is gonna suck, but that party last night was fucking awesome. Tons and tons of straight edge people being crazy and swimming. Krystal seen this girl who she really liked and got her phone number. I kisssed Eric on the lips and everyone was like "oh my god", but no one got it on camera, so all we have is memories. N e ways I went crazy last night and I figured I'd share, so toodles

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I've got Road Runner! [26 Jul 2002|10:06am]
Hey everybody I got Road Runner and now I'll be online more often. Timmay! Well, I'm off to find a messenger.

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HAHAHA! [05 Jun 2002|08:58am]

13

I act like I'm 13.
This test was brought to you by James - Part of the David and James phenomenon. Take it here.



Ha, so there! You guys all thought I was young...oh wait...

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Hey, its me again... [03 Jun 2002|10:53am]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | "How I Could Just Kill a Man"~RAGE ]

If you have time, could you please fill this out about me? I thought it looked interesting...and I kinda want to know.(thanx Tia)

DO YOU THINK I'M...
1. Quiet or Loud?:
2. Short or Tall?:
3. Weird or Original?:
4. Nice or Mean?:
5. Friendly or Shy?:
6. Normal or Special?:
7. Smart or Stupid?:
8. Boring or Fun?:
9. Attractive or Unattractive?:
AM I...
1. A psycho?:
2. Athletic?:
3. A nerd?:
4. Funny?:
5. Ghetto?:
7. Two-faced?:
8. Obnoxious?:
9. Interesting?:
10. Cool?:
JUST SOME QUESTIONS
1. What do you think I'll be when I grow up?:
2. Do you think I'll get married?:
3. When is my birthday?:
4. Where was I born?:
5. How old am I?:
6. Who is my best friend?:
7. What song (if any) reminds u of me?:
8. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?:
9. If you could rename me...what would my name be?:
10. Have you ever had a dream about me? If so, describe it:
11. Do you think I'm a virgin?:
12. If you just met me how old would you guess I am?:
13. Am I huggable?:
14. If you could give me anything...what would it be?:
15. If you could promise me anything..what would it be?:
PERSONAL
1. Am I physically ugly, average, decent,goodlooking,beautiful, hot etc?:
2. Would you ever kiss me?:
3. Have you ever considered asking me out?:
4. Do you ever think about me off-line?:
5. If we spent a day together...where would we go and what would we do?
6. If you could describe me in one word..what would that word be?:
7. Do you/have you ever had a crush on me?:
8. When we first met what were your thoughts?:
9. If you had to describe to someone who I am and what I am like what would you tell them?:
**EVERYBODY**
1. Do you wish we were closer?:
2. State here your completely honest opinion of me:

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Does this make me a bad person? [03 Jun 2002|10:21am]
[ mood | nervous ]
[ music | Quote of the Day: Please don't suck on my tongue. ]

If I throw caution to the wind for a little while, does that mean I'm a bad person or I made a bad decision? I think I shoulda been more responsible, but too late now, and besides I don't regret what I did...but the consequences are scary...and I don't know if I'm ready, but I'll give it everything I've got, but will it be enough?

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Finally a whole day to myself... [08 May 2002|09:41am]
Oh wait_I_have to go to school j/k I love you Krys

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Hi Tia! [07 May 2002|11:49am]
[ mood | gloomy ]
[ music | "The Day I Tried to Live"~Sound Garden ]

Hey, I'm not angry at you. I was a little frustrated, but I'm over that now, so don't worry. Gah, I hate school computers! Stupid computers, won't let you curse or anything else even resembling something cool. Ok, I'm done.
I love you Krys.

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